This is not a happy post ~ I will warn you now
but I feel like I have to write ~ I need to get it out
a little like when I used to keep a journal
except now I type and post for the whole world to see
instead of keeping my thought between pages and storing them in my bedside table
last Friday morning I was going through my daily routine
when something told me to pick up my phone
I picked it up and put it down
then picked it back up again
there was a message from my best friend's daughter
one that knocked the wind out of me
my bestie's sister had passed away the night before
honestly, I know that there is a circle of life
that we all have to die someday
but I find it so hard to accept when a sweet kind gentle being
that has been taking care of her terminally ill husband for the last 6 months
can be taken from this earth
leaving a 23 year old son that will soon lose his father as well
I guess that is the part that gets me
how uncertain tomorrow is
today was the funeral ~ the building was packed
a testament to a woman who was loved very much
the one with a smile, a kind word, a recipe, a how to
our resident Martha before Martha became the rage
she loved big ~ with her whole heart
last time I saw her was at a shower this spring
everyone would always ask how Dan was doing
but when I sat down to talk to her that day I said
how are YOU doing
being the caretaker is exhausting ~ we do it for love
and tend to put things like our own well being
off to the side ~ for later
her later never came and that makes me sad
but I am so glad that I focused on her that day
it was the last time I saw her
I saw people today that I have not seen in years
there were lots of hugs and tears
and great conversations ~ some remember that time
and stories about Debbie
rest in peace sweet angel
gone too soon
xo
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